Thu 28 Jun 2007
I am in the studio… it is about 10:30 and hot. Way too hot to stand over a kettle… but stand over the kettle I did.
This helped a lot (thank you ginga!)
Excuse the crappy cell phone pic… the camera is at home.
So.. I am a little tired and very hot… I feel a philosophical post coming on. Something about the music and the vibe in my studio clears my head.
Stitch by stitch I am crawling towards this life as a fiber artist. I am really trying to find a balance in my life. I have the real job that fades in and out of my periphery.. my family and this dyeing life. I knit a lot, but not as much as I’d like to. I dye a lot, but not as much as I’d like to. I work a hell of a lot.. much more than I ever anticipated. I feel that my brain is constantly thinking about yarn, color, accounts, orders, and deadlines.
(so much to say… so much to say… so much to say… )
I am trying to do a lot of things… and do them all well. I am hoping that parts of my life will wait for me to be ready for them… but you never can tell. My kid is sprouting up like a weed and I hope he feels like he has my attention. Because… as much as I obsess about the yarn… I do it double time about him. My baby has grown into a little boy that can recognize Orioles players and clearly state that he wants to shred it on the ramp with “da big boys” and has a “bad elbow wike Adam Wowen” of the Orioles. The other day in the car he told me that they were both out for the season.
This life feels like it is on fast forward all the time. The shifter is stuck in overdrive. I am hoping that I can slow down at some point… but that does not look like it is a reality for the next year.
I know.. call the waaaambulance… I really am very grateful that things are taking off. I just wish there was a clearer deliniation between work/dyeing/home. The crazy thing is… I bet I would be miserable if it was easy.
Looks like it is storming outside… I am hoping that the heat will give way to a more suitable temp. I would take the high 80’s over 90’s any day..Baltimore gets sticky and agitated over the heat…. it filters into every part of your existance.
Nite folks… hope it is cool where you are!
June 28th, 2007 at 10:55 pm
I totally get where you’re coming from with the kids growing up fast thing. I know it sounds cliche’, but it’s true. And because I have three of them I always feel like none of them are able to benefit because there is always, always a distraction someplace and they rarely get one-on-one attention. From what I can gather though the Cowboy is awesome like his mama and you are raising a productive, valuable member of the next generation. You need air conditioning in your shop!
June 28th, 2007 at 11:34 pm
This may sound nutty, but I think you’ll understand, given the heat and humidity we’ve had these past few days. I drove a few hours south to help my mom and was blessed to be caught in a rainstorm this evening. Specifically, I got out of the car and made a light-hearted, happy dash across the parking lot and into the Target. That’s it. Short. Simple. Most pleasurable. I could’ve stayed in the car and tried to wait out the storm, but what fun would there be in that?!?!?!
So here’s to savoring life’s little joys! =)
June 29th, 2007 at 8:46 am
I don’t have the kid issue so I can’t comment on that, but why is it that women have to work twice as hard to get the same things that men do? And try and balance everything on their plates with one foot in the air? That’s probably coming off more feminazi then I want, but I do hope that once in a while you can stop, take a deep breath, and try and savor all these wonderful things you have going on in your life. Hard I know!
June 29th, 2007 at 8:47 am
it was pretty gross and sticky here until last night when the front passed over. now it is nice…..
sounds like you have a lot on your plate. at least the fiber end of things can be a pleasurable, calming (for the most part) and creative outlet that can relieve the stress of the “other” job….
everything will work out and balance - life has a way of doing that without us noticing….
June 29th, 2007 at 9:13 am
It’s the story of every mother. Yours is just complicated with your successful business. Hang in there.
June 29th, 2007 at 12:20 pm
Hmmm, I get a lot of conversation about baseball from my hubby that sounds like that one you had. Does that mean my hubby is young at heart, or your son is growing like a weed? As for doing things well….I got the Knitty yarn the other day and LOVE it! Well done!
July 20th, 2007 at 11:38 pm
I Know how you feel about your kiddo - This fall 3 out of 4 are starting new schools… Stepson starting high school, My oldest starting middle school, and my baby is starting kindergarten!! Totally insane!